What's Been Going on With Me???

[Chrystalwuzhere]

Hi everyone. I hope you all are well.

A few of you folks have been wondering what has been going on with me. I saw the birthday thread you all posted for me, and I'm touched by it. Someone asked how my birthday was, and to be honest, it wasn't so great. I got off work early, which is a rarety, but only because I worked until 9:00 o'clock p.m. earlier in the week. After I got home from work, I spent the rest of my birthday in bed, feeling so bad I couldn't even rest.

I don't pop by that often, but do think about you guys more than you know. I am having surgery the week after next, and hopefully it will set some things right. I am also a chronic insomniac, and the insomnia has gotten much worse since my surgery last year. The doctor has put me on sedatives to make me sleep, but it's a crap shoot as to whether or not they work. More often than not they don't... but when they do, it's a welcome relief. So, two weeks after surgery, I'm scheduled to see a sleep specialist (which I can't afford), and hopefully he will get me sleeping normally.

I've always been a thin woman, but the medication I am on has caused drastic weight gain (40 pounds). I've discontinued the medication (I won't need it any more after surgery), and hope that I can lose the weight. But, because of some heart issues I have, this excess weight (which I gained VERY quickly) is also making me feel horrible. No strength... no stamina... sluggish...etc.

At times, because of my physical struggles, I've coccooned myself, and to be honest, doing that makes me feel worse. But it's seldom that I feel good enough to do anything. My life consists of going to work and coming home. When I get home from work on Friday, I hibernate until time to go back to work on Monday.

The one thing in my life that has grown stronger is my relationship with the Lord. Isn't that such a marvelous thing? It seems like the worse things get for me, the closer I get to Him. So, I can't really lament all the physical issues I have. I may not know the grace and closeness that I do now if it weren't for that. Isn't it a shame it takes that for some of us?

I've asked Core to let me step down as moderator here because I've been absent so long. I appreciate each and every one of you. I still plan to pop in from time to time, and hopefully I will be around more later as I get to feeling better.

I dread surgery. Dread it bad. Who likes to have surgery? But, I am hopeful that the Lord will bless me to make it through it, and to make a full recovery. If you wouldn't mind, would you please remember me as the time approaches?

Thank you all, and God bless.

:hug:

[CoreIssue]

I am so sorry to hear all the issues. As I told you I would rather put you as Mod on leave but will honor your request. Just hurry back and tell me to reactivate your position.

Your a long timer here. Really give you a very special place.

Please, get well and hurry back.

:pray:

[roman8]

Sorry you are going through so much Crystal:(
I have insomnia too , so I know how that feels, I also take medication to sleep.
I will be praying for you , for the upcoming surgery and the other issues as well.

It is great that the Lord is using this time for your relationship with him..

" tho he slay me,still will I trust him" ? :nod:

[InTheWind]

You get better and come by when ya can.
Praying for ya. :pray::pray:

[Willy]

3 John 1:2

Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth. (KJV)
… my wish too … :pray:

:aww:

[Jessie]

praying for you!

I'm sorry to hear of you having surgary and problems.

you sure are missed here.

let us know how it goes. ((((hugs)))))

[a.baker]

:hug: Chrystal I will pray for you! I will pray that the doctors find out what is going on and if something deeper is hiding God will expose it and give the doctors the wisdom and the steady hands needed for your opperation and anything else that may come on the way. I will pray for strength and peaceful joy.

We think about you very often and while you are away doing what you need to do you will be in all of our thoughts.

[Chrystalwuzhere]

Thank you, everyone.

Can't chat long, so I'll give you the long and short of it. Surgery went well, and I'm on the mend. It will take a while, but I'll get there. The doctor did find more than he bargained for, but he was able to surgically repair it all.

I'll post more as I am able. Dealing with some pain and weakness now, but still doing really well so far.

I love you guys!

[InTheWind]

Take it easy and get well soon, thanks for updating us Sis. :pray:

[a.baker]

Thanks so much for the update :hug: More prayers for your recovery :pray:

[Willy]

:wave1::choir::thumbsup::thumbup::2thumbup::pray:

[CoreIssue]

Get well soon! :pray:

[Chrystalwuzhere]

Hello, everyone. I'm six days post surgical and doing very well.

For those who don't know, I had to have a hysterectomy. I've suffered from endometriosis for years, and had finally had enough. So far, given the way I feel, I would say this was a very smart decision on the part of me and my doctor.

All of the pain is gone. Not only that, but I feel better in ways that I didn't expect. There were some things like weakness and sluggishness that I didn't know were related to this, but now they're gone. I'm amazed at how good I feel.

The damage was more than I thought it would be. He said my uterus and my pelvic wall had grown together. Since surgery to remove the adhesions and implants last year, the endo had come back, and both ovaries were compromised. However, he did say that my right ovary took the biggest hit. Also, there was scar tissue and blah, blah, blah, blah. So, if there was any doubt about whether or not this was the right decision, that bit of information right there convinced me. All ambivalence is now gone.

To be honest, it's kind of like I've been set free. I feel so good that I got up Saturday (3 days after surgery), and tried to clean my house. Well, it didn't take me long to realize I couldn't do that. So, I've been taking it easy.

Thank you so much for your care, prayer, and concern. It is appreciated and welcome.

Love you guys. :hug:

[Chrystalwuzhere]

I am so stupid.

The doctor told me not to drive for two weeks, but I got out driving today. It didn't take me long to turn my butt around and get back home. Pain, weakness, wooziness. I just felt so good I thought it would be okay. WRONG!!!

You live and learn. I'll behave myself from now on. Pinky promise.

[CoreIssue]

Be smart, don't be Chrystal.

:sniff::redx:

[Chrystalwuzhere]

:p

[InTheWind]

Yellow pages, let your fingers do the walking.

[Willy]

... short walks ... longer as strength returns. ... well done. :nod::nod::nod:

[Jessie]

its good to see your doing much better!

give it a few weeks and your a new woman!