purpose

[a.baker]

After reading much of Gods wisdom in scripture for the hundredth time, everything is just so meaningless. lol As stated in scripture and so very true. Do you ever wonder what in the world is your purpose and whats the point? Whats the struggle for? Why try and do if you can't get the needed things any ways. Not wanted but needed. You try your hardest and yet again it all crumbles. Piling up piling up and you say o.k. time to yet again think it doesn't matter, but it does.

Its like "o.k. God I understand its beyond my control and I don't care about worldly fleshly stuff, I have no desire for it. " Won't go into detail but its a hard day to face. Not to mention the loneliness, hubby always working and gone so have this feeling like I'm trapped and alone you know? But yet I need some time alone with God, if that makes sense. I try my hardest to ignore stupid things but sometimes it creeps up on you and wham theres a load. I just want out and would like to enjoy something for once and laugh. This has nothing to do with religion just poverty. And has nothing to do with my faith in God so please don't attack my faith. If anyone thinks its about my faith or "how I have change" than they are far from understanding what I am going through.

I think of this and I think my only purpose and why God keeps me here is for my daughter. I look at how she views me as a mother and her friend and I don't think she would do very good without a mother. I don't know how she would get along without me. She resembles me so much. Maybe this sounds silly but I am serious. My purpose and I feels Gods purpose for my life here on earth is for my daughter and thats it. Sucks when you try and completely put yourself aside and its still not good enough and here comes a bully knocking down all my efforts. Thanks for letting me get that out today :hug: thats all.

[InTheWind]

After reading much of Gods wisdom in scripture for the hundredth time, everything is just so meaningless. lol As stated in scripture and so very true. Do you ever wonder what in the world is your purpose and whats the point? Whats the struggle for? Why try and do if you can't get the needed things any ways. Not wanted but needed. You try your hardest and yet again it all crumbles. Piling up piling up and you say o.k. time to yet again think it doesn't matter, but it does.

Check James out, he had similar thoughts.
I think that very thing all the time, but it`s usually when i`m dwelling on the bad things.
It helps me if i realize it could be so much worse, people in other counties are being tortured and killed and are starving. I know that doesn`t help much when your going through hard times but it makes ya thankful for what you do have. Time is a weird thing, sometimes it drags on and other times it flys by, the slow times are usually the bad times.
Hang in there God is in control and will help.


I think of this and I think my only purpose and why God keeps me here is for my daughter. I look at how she views me as a mother and her friend and I don't think she would do very good without a mother. I don't know how she would get along without me. She resembles me so much. Maybe this sounds silly but I am serious. My purpose and I feels Gods purpose for my life here on earth is for my daughter and thats it.

That alone is worth any struggle. :nod: :hug:

[CoreIssue]

Many people forget life revolves around the little everyday things, not the big glitzy stuff.

We can shape eternity in the life of others one little bit at time. Almost imperceptibly.

But it counts.

[John Beckett]

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Amanda, please click on the link below .....


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fIMzFgbYOY

[a.baker]

Thanks everyone! The song is very nice. I will read on James tonight. Your words are all encouraging. :hug:
This scripture came across to me last night and who would know it would prove more today than just yesterday. I can't stop raeding it over and over again. I am not trying to memorize it it just strikes me as such great wisdom, Gods wisdom for what I feel right now. Who knew what hard times today would bring and how much more this already striking peice of scripture would strike me even more today. Its absolutely amazing, I feel God once again spoke to me not just what I already felt but what He knew was lying ahead for me today.

Ecclesiastes 9:11-12

The race is not to the swift
or the battle to the strong,
nor does food come to the wise
or wealth to the brilliant
or favor to the learned;
but time and chance happen to them all.

Moreover, no man knows when his hour will come:
As fish are caught in a cruel net,
or birds are taken in a snare,
so men are trapped by evil times
that fall unexpectedly upon them.

[kay-gee]

I know what you are going through a.baker. I think we can all feel that way sometimes. Thinking to my self, sometimes...Why?...what's this all for? What does it add up to? We all have different issues to deal with in this life. Mine perhaps is not poverty, but no matter, how well off I think I am, I carry a nagging sense of sadness and despair about. Ghosts from the past that float through the mind? Perhaps. I can be in crowds of partying happy people and still feel desparately alone sometimes. Knowing that I will never have a child look up in my face and call me "Daddy". More sadness. I dont know if I'm writing this to give any encouragement to you, but to let you know that we are all in the same boat as in the scripture you gave. You cannot ever give up. Just gotta keep on trucking! God honours your faith and your hope!

all the best...

[John Beckett]

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Well said, Kay-Gee

And I will never have a child of my own, biologically speaking,
call me daddy, either. But when I look at myself in an
overall view, I realize that I would have made a
terrible dad. lol

No kidding, either.

I am ALMOST a perfectionist, and my poor boy would have
been nearly traumatized by my persistent hammering
about his clothes, his room, his school grades,
his taste in this and that, AND GOD FORBID
THAT BOY SHOULD DECIDE HE DOESN'T
WANNA ATTEND CHURCH!!

So, sometimes, we have to see that God Knows us
better than we know ourselves, and He has
everything under control, even if it
may not be the way we
personally feel
it should
be.

John

[a.baker]

Thanks Kaygee :hug:

[Jessie]

insightful KG ....

that was helpful to me too.