grandma

[Jessie]

ok had to do this last thing.
at the reitirement home they are not taking very good care of her.
so I called her tonight.
her mind is going fast. I think shes gonna be in a nursing home soon if she continues. her mind is going fast.

but I told my mother about lukewarmness. since shes the person whos taking responsility for her I felt I had no choice but to talk to her.
that grandma was NOT ready to go yet and I think this is whats wrong,
"repentece" and what was said on the board concerning the thread on lukewarmness.

I did push. admitted it too. I had to eternity is here.
my hands are clean.

perhaps my mother will "get it" too. who knows.

but I'm not gonna live in fantasy either.

so now shaking the dust off my feet again....

Please pray someone is able to talk with her soon, before shes too far gone while she can still have some sense of mind and hearing.
(her hearing is going in and out)
and explain the gospel the right way! in a way she can understand

I just had to do this. eternity is too long to wind up in hell.

my job is done.

[a.baker]

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[InTheWind]

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[CoreIssue]

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[Jessie]

checked on her last night.
she was sooo out of it. speaking all over the place. and said CALL MY NURSE
which I did'nt think anything was wrong with her except her mind but still I said pull your cord and then she said shes here now (no one was with her)
I called the home and had them check on her.
she still had the phone in her hand.

suffice to say, my mom and uncle are not probably to happy with me as I pushed the issue, that she is NOT ok to be totaly alone anymore.
so they are staying starting today with her between the two of them.
(again I have to be the parent)


I will be going over tomarrow to say good-bye for the last time.
dh said, its enough (my nerves) even said grandma had told him when the day came
that he would know when it was enough for me.

(although my friend from Japan is coming to see her but wont be here until
the 1st week in july, and she wants to see her but I dont think she'll still be here then)


please pray for peace between all of us. my mother will be there tomarrow.
its her day to stay with her.

I'm holding up good, want to grieve now and then but am holding up pretty good so far.

[InTheWind]

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[CoreIssue]

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[a.baker]

:pray: Yes she does need someone with her. And praying for your family and you.