pray please

[Jessie]

trying to get a grip on some stuff that has held me for years.

it to do with judging and being under the weight of the NO judgment thing by my inlaws. I've dealt with a lot of it, but there is a hook that needs to be unhooked in me. like the things I like and dislike and accepting that.
to see what needs to be seen and so on.

please pray I'd come to terms with this.
its like with them, one just cant be themselves inside even in your own heart. although they are not around the damage was done.

also, not feeling so well, cold is setting in and have one of those tension headaches again. :sad:

[John Beckett]

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Awwww, Jessie. :hug:

i just said a soft prayer for you, dear Sis.

I wish so bad that I could be closer to
where you are. You and I would be the
absolute best of friends, w/o a doubt!

But of course, that's not gonna happen. LOL

It would take a fifty mile-wide sheet of molten lava
chasing me to get me to go to the west coast. The
Atlantic Ocean is big enough. I couldn't handle
being so close to the Pacific. Heh heh.

Anyway, i feel for you so much, and i pray that
you seek His Guidance and His Assistance in
all of your issues. I wish I could say and/or
do more for you, Jessie!

In Jesus, forever!

John



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[CoreIssue]

Tension makes feeling bad a whole lot easier to happen. Our bodies just are not up to it if we are feeling down.

[Jessie]

this tension is driving me nuts.

there is some virus going around I finally have got it.
its a bad bad cold. sets in the lungs.

both is just too much.

[kay-gee]

the bug is here too. Been trying to shake it like a week. Sucking on limes everyday!

all the best...

[Jessie]

will try to go to work today.... yesterday on 4 1/2 hours and it seemed like 10.

probably come home early. but gonna try and stick it out.

right now the tension heachache is gone.

[a.baker]

Yes I will pray for these things in your life with your in laws to smooth out in your heart. This stress can be so very damaging and when you hang on to things in your heart Satan will use them to eat you from the inside out! He will use it to keep your focus on these things until it literally makes you sick and he tries to use them to make you think of other things, instead of the Lord. It is Satans way of pushing you into circles... so much more to be said on this; but only with God can you make it through this and get back to level ground with the joy He wants to fill your heart with. :hug:

[a.baker]

Just thinking... one more quick thing. Let God break these chains your in laws are holding on you. Let Him free you from this depression!!! Nothing is too big for Him to handle; trust Him and give it to Him. He wants to do this for you Jessie.

[kay-gee]

Yes, God does things but He expects us to do the leg work. You have to make a move. If you don't wont to forgive them, then simply move out of the area and live your own life!

all the best...

[Jessie]

believe me I have done the leg work...

forgiveness is'nt the issue. getting totaly out from under the control is.
its a brainwashing kindof thing....

KG, you have no idea what kindof people they are.

as Core has said many times forgiveness means restoring the relationship.
they have destroyed them.

you did'nt know me when I first came to CTZ.
those here helped me outta a lot of stuff, and I have a ways to go...

its not as easy as you would think. its not just ok snap your fingers and forgive and forget.
does'nt work like that.

[a.baker]

Yes it will take some time. These things can't be fixed over night. Time to shift and let the repairing start and than time to adjust. The more damage that was done, the more it takes to fix it.

[kay-gee]

But sometimes things are simple! Move to another town, county, State...whatever, and put them out of your life and mind. People can only have the control over you to the extent that you allow them to have. It's called moving on! Millions have done it!!!

all the best...

[CoreIssue]

WoF is a cult. Cults are not easy to break from. I know having worked with many many such over the years.

Just saying move does not work if the influence is in the family members who move with you. The problems come with you unless EVERY member of your family breaks from them as well.

We are talking indoctrination and conditioning from an early age on here. Not some quaint little beliefs that are just taught and accepted. They are ground into the very personage of the person.

It is a disservice to say it is simple. It isn't.

It takes time and hard work. But if you live in a house not working to overcome it with you it is a nightmare.

Unless one has been around it this a hard to see. But it is very real.