moving on...

[a.baker]

I am not sure if this is something to start a thread about or not.

I just wanted to let you know that I won't be stopping in as much any more. As things I have already replied to trickle down I won't be in as much. Because I care I just thought it would be nice to say bye for now. My stay here was a short one but nice for the most part. Thank x for any open ears, caring hearts and time spent answering any questions I have had. I will pop in once in awhile.
I feel I frequent here a little too much and maybe not welcomed by some. So I don't want to be an annoyance. I love you all very much and hope all goes well with you. Thank x again for telling me to open my bible; that is one I won't forget...:hug:

[Jessie]

please dont stop coming by.

you dont need to feel like you've been here too much ,
many times the board slows down but then picks right back up.
I've been busy working, and reading rev. thinking of some questions to ask LOL
tring to understand rev and that is so involved!

we will miss you if you decide to go.

you mentioned not welcomed by some, I know of NO one here that feels that way!
please reconsider!

[John Beckett]

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Name one, Amanda. One person in here
who doesn't feel a warm sensation just from
seeing a post from you! I wanna know
who it is, because I will be shocked.

Dear Sis, you are a "Blessing" to me, just
as much as Core, Jessie, Roman, ITW,
and a few others in here are! This Site is
wonderful, and you are as much a reason
for that as anyone.

PLEEEEEEEASE have a wonderul weekend, and
i pray your move goes smooth, dear!

BIG, WARM ------->>> :hug:


`

[roman8]

a.baker. I love to come in here and read your posts, Like Jessie and John said I dont know of anyone who dosent love you here .

I dont get much time to post here but I try to read them all by the end of the week. I will be away for a few days at an antique show , I hope you dont decide to leave , I would really miss you.:hug:

[kay-gee]

ditto to all that has been said. a.baker, in a short year or so, you have become a pillar of CTZ. Your zeal for the Lord is contagious and almost a daily joy for most of us. It would be a sad day for all if you stopped coming here. If you quit CTZ, please be sure that I have all your contact info so that we can stay in touch. That is very important to me.

all the best...

[InTheWind]

CTZ would suffer a lose without you, I hope ya stick around too. :nod:

[CTZonEdit]

I echo what ITW says. Things wouldnt be the same without you but understand if you need to tend to other things in your life.

[CoreIssue]

Ditto to all!

Not wanted or welcome? :swoon:

Sometimes I don't post as much as I did before because I have assumed a few responsibilities elsewhere that can be a bit overwhelming at times.

But not want you here? :hug:

[a.baker]

:hug: Thank x everyone! I am feeling that way in others areas of my life as well. I had to pray and ask God to help me separate my feelings from whats going on around me lately. I decided with the move of everything else in my life than maybe I should move away from here and out into the world more. I am awfully busy all the time but something is missing. Maybe settling in this new area is part of Gods plan to do with me what He will.

You know in my Sunday school class this is a big one for me. While everyone wants to dodge and not get very serious I tend to always get the class that way with the questions I have or the things I struggle with. LOL I cry a lot. I just don't want to be a drag in my class so I may back away from that too.

Another struggle I have had is that I like to blend in. I suppose I have always been shy in that way. One reason why I come here to CTZ is because its on the net so I am just one of millions and I can blend in that way. But I think I need to get out and about and involved some way into this world. I know thats what God wants but yet He hasn't pointed me to anything yet. It's like I want to do so much for Him but yet not be noticed. I have always had stage freight.

I still today get nervous and shaky as I try to speak in front of my Sunday school class of 10 - 20 people and when I cry... talk about embarrassing.

I tell you what, sometimes I just in general worry too much about what someone is thinking about me. Since I have found Jesus I have been able to dodge this mostly but it still comes up.

So I think I just need to wipe things clean, start new things and see where God puts me. Don't worry I will pop in once in awhile because I will miss coming here and I will think about all of you; I want to make sure you are all doing o.k.

I am sorry for talking so much about me. I feel that is a selfish intention that tries to sneak in on me at times. I am just one of the millions and I like it bets that way.

Its all about God and I am just here waiting for Him to pick me up and use me for something; in all good time.

Again thank x everyone! You have all made me feel much better! :hug:

[CoreIssue]

Talk and sharing is good and healthy.

Most of us understand how others don't want to be bothered and one gets to the point where they feel they are too involved.

But that is not the case here. The site was started to be a place where one could feel at home online.

Sure, we have to live in the real world and cannot exist here. Understood. But don't go to the other extreme of not feeling there is any place for here in your life.

Balance in all things. Family, work, community and more.

And sure don't feel you are wrong to want your church classes to get more in depth. They are wrong for not want too.

You always have a place here and are one of us, not someone who is welcome to visit. Home versus neighbor. Never forget that.

[Jessie]

Talk and sharing is good and healthy.

Most of us understand how others don't want to be bothered and one gets to the point where they feel they are too involved.

But that is not the case here. The site was started to be a place where one could feel at home online.

Sure, we have to live in the real world and cannot exist here. Understood. But don't go to the other extreme of not feeling there is any place for here in your life.

Balance in all things. Family, work, community and more.

And sure don't feel you are wrong to want your church classes to get more in depth. They are wrong for not want too.

You always have a place here and are one of us, not someone who is welcome to visit. Home versus neighbor. Never forget that.

abosolutly!


a note to you to.

when I was eight my sunday school teacher was teaching on the crucifiction and tears came to her eyes.
that was when I got saved. because of that emtion she showed.
she kept composed but still there where tears.

to me it was a sign of seriousness and it did'nt fly over my head like I think it did most. it got me thinking.....
I'd never seen tears from anyone before.

[Chrystalwuzhere]

Amanda,

Sometimes backing away and wiping things clean is nothing more than running away from uncomfortable social anxieties. Please, please make sure not to let the enemy badger you into doing that because it can be one way of hindering you in your walk and duties with the Lord. This may not be the case with you, but then again, it could be. If not, forgive me.

Another way the enemy can hit us and render us silent is to jab us in our self esteem. Making us believe we are worthless and a bother can really cripple us as well. I've had those issues as well. I used to think, "They don't want me here! I'm nothing!" When the truth be known, it just wasn't true.

As far as speaking in front of people, I have the same exact problem. It was a real shocker when my job required it of me. I've been known to get so nervous that when I tried to talk, nothing came out. People could see me struggling. Talk about embarrassing!

But, if you need to step away and take care of other things in your life, I completely understand. I've done that a couple of times myself. Then again, there are other times when my job requires so much of me that I simply don't have time to stop in....but it doesn't mean I don't love CTZ, or that the folks here aren't extremely important to me.

Sometimes life is such a struggle that I spend all of my time fighting the struggles, and not enough time simply loving our Father. (That's been a problem of mine in for a long while.) I had to be reminded that I just needed to turn my eyes upon Him and let Him take care of me.

I'm just rambling now. Sorry...this thread isn't about me. It's about you. Forgive me...sometimes I can get carried away when I start reflecting.

Please don't stray too far from us, or stay gone forever if you do decide to leave. We would miss you. :nod:

:hug:

[Chrystalwuzhere]

P.S. It's a blessing to me to watch you dig in the Word and learn and grow. I'm so proud of you. So, so proud.

[a.baker]

Thank you everyone! It has been so weird not coming here for the last few days. Moving and job hunting. The economy is so very bad!! I am getting ready to find a new church because my old one will now be too far away. I am a little nervous. So many doctrines I still don't know much about.

Chrystal you could be right but since I thought about that it has been impossible for me to get onto the net... a sign ; I am not sure. My new house is going to keep me super busy and so will hunting for more work and work when it comes my way.

I will pop in when I can; I will admit I have felt more lonely lately but it has made me search more and work more for different things. I have no idea where God is going to land me or what He is going to have me do next...
:scratch:

[kay-gee]

I am glad you did not completely desert us a.baker. Hope all is well. Keep in touch. I know hoe exciting it can be to get a place. You will find there is no end to things to be done. As you walk about you will begin to imagine...we could do this with that...and that with this so on and so on. Enjoy.

all the best...

[CoreIssue]

I agree with KG and glad you can come back.

A lot to do but your own place will 'grow' on you.

[a.baker]

Ha ha grow on me it will! But I like the work that is to be done.

I am not sure if anyone remembers earlier this fall or so me talking about how I prayed for a house. This is definitely a gift from God no question or doubt. With the mysterious and surprising way He is supplying for our needs in and out of the house; just to make this work. The way the house came to us as well is definitely a blessing from God. This was Gods decision not my own; a leap of faith it was.

I have prayed for Him to dwell in this house and to help me make this a house for others, for Him. After all it is His. So every day I work at it I feel I am doing it for Him. I was finally able to have a front entrance that I can call my own and I put 2 frames with some scripture on it. Oh was I pleased to do so!

Yeah I have found that I just can't stay away from CTZ. It is like family and I missed all of you as our internet has been gone for a few days. It is also overtaken by my husbands work a lot too!

All I want to say is WOW! The way God has been working in my life and those around me lately is amazing! Anyone care for details I will be more than happy to tell.

Thank x to all for your cares and concerns. Sometimes it is hard and confusing to know where to go next or where to spend your time. I find it quite welcoming and pleasant here, thank x family!!:hug:

[CoreIssue]

Really happy for you, a.baker.

We have lived in our house for 21 years. Never grow tired of it.

[kay-gee]

yes yes... I would love to hear some details!

all the best...

[roman8]

been missing your posts a.baker, so yes I would like some details. I am so happy that you are enjoying the new home .:hug:

[a.baker]

Well first to start is when I prayed a little while ago about a house. Well we lost our last apartment and we had an apartment house offered to us to move in rent free if we did the upkeep. I thought that was the house. But God had a different plan. We all prayed for my husband to find work and preferably with a man who would be Christian and know Him well.

One day my husband was at work at his pretty new job which was interesting with the way it came up to my husband. My husband was talking to him about our situation and how we wanted a house. The man said "Why didn't you say so, I have four for sale right now and we can work something out."

And work something out he did, the taxes, down payment and land contract and also the understanding until I found a a full time job. Later on we were talking about community which brought the talk of church up. I found out he goes to church and is a very strong Christian man! So two prayers were answered; a house and my husband working closely with a strong Christian man (who is not pushy).

O.k. the last day we were moving in I prayed that day and asked God for food because we were broke and had only one box of food which was nothing my 4 year old or husband would eat. All our dishes and cookware were crazily pack away. We just finished unloading the truck and I was thinking how hungry I was and my daughter was asking over and over again for food. I thought maybe I can find $3 in change for a happy meal at MC Donalds and at least she can eat. All of a sudden there was a knock on the door and behold the man who sold us the house had an apple pie for us a gift card for a restaurant!!! We were so hungry we ate so fast Ha Ha!

Next came getting my check cashed which seemed almost impossible until we tried the last place and they cashed it! Than we had gas money to get back home after we dropped off the van we borrowed for moving.

Next came me looking for work. Ugh! So many applications and trying so hard. But I prayed and I remembered a promise from God "Search and you will seek". So I didn't give up. I kept putting them in and calling places the best I could. Finally my current job offered me some more hours. Not permanent but works for now. A church also responded to my call about custodial cleaning and I put a quote in which as far as I know is cheaper than the others. They haven't called me back yet but it is very hopeful.

Oh and lets see this lady I work with brought me to her mom who gave us bags of food and gave me info. on churches in my area to get more.

Boy is money tight and some how God is stringing it along.

Just yesterday my husband came home with some good news about some future work for himself which will bring in good money.

Whew! Its been a long 2 weeks or so and still going!

LOL my shower wants to break and it is some how holding together until we get money to fix it... it is so nice to get a shower and be clean.

Our water is filled with bacteria so we have to shock our system in the future before we can drink or cook with it. But God is supplying us with good water from others sources!!

He gets all the credit!!:nod: It is His will for us to stay here and it is good. Faith in knowing this takes any worry away about how our next needs will be met. Thank x be to God :yowza:

[CoreIssue]

Yep. Tonnage to deal with.

But remember when a home has that many issues it drives the price down. But when fixed you get way more value back than you sunk in.

I am very happy for you!! :yowza:

[kay-gee]

When God opens the Flood gates of blessing upon you...Watch out...It is like Niagara Falls!!!!

all the best...

[a.baker]

:nod: Yes it is!