Jessie
09-22-2006, 10:40 PM
I think I need faith. and with this pentecostal/charasmatic junk in my background,
I was under too much emotionally all the time, thinking the more I felt it the
deeper it was. which is'nt true. plus put that with being the
one in the family who took on everything, what they do/did they put off on me,
I'm not responsible for everyones guilt just my own.
boy just reading that makes me ill, its a total recipe for disaster.
and it did end up in disaster for me.
I dont want to beg God to save someone, just to ask and know that he heard he cares
and I can go on.
I was under too much emotionally all the time, thinking the more I felt it the
deeper it was. which is'nt true. plus put that with being the
one in the family who took on everything, what they do/did they put off on me,
I'm not responsible for everyones guilt just my own.
boy just reading that makes me ill, its a total recipe for disaster.
and it did end up in disaster for me.
I dont want to beg God to save someone, just to ask and know that he heard he cares
and I can go on.